Reading break is coming up . . .
Easter Weekend is comng up . . .
Business Plan due date is coming up . . .
Final exam is coming up . . .
Oops, I don't have finals . . .
Spring is coming up . . .
Disney Trip is coming up . . .
Graduation is coming up . . .
What should I do next? Work? Apply for Veternary Program? . . .
Time flies!
Soon, I will be 24. What the hell have I acheived? I am so god damn useless.
BUT, I know I can do it.
I had stood at the top before. I know how and what it feels to be at the top. I know how cocky I was at the top. I know I saw no one better than me when I was at the top. I HAVE SEEN the view from the top.
Then I failed miserably. I failed myself, because I was cocky, impudent, and too confident. My failure rolled me down to the bottom. Now, I am looking at the top from the bottom view. I have been challenaging myself since then. I am not the same old cocky Michael who fell. I am Michael who suffered all the hardship and overcomed them. Because I know how painful it was, now I know how to not to be too confident, cocky and impudent. I respect, value and treasure everything around me. He once told me 緣起緣滅 (this is really hard to translate. it means how everything in life evolves into either good or bad, but can also go back to their original pure forms). True that and so true.
That's why I know although I have not achieved anything, I will still be successful. Because I have achieved nothing, I will have plenty of opportunities for achievements! I will stand at the top again. This time, it will be way higher than the last time. However, I will remain indifferent for being at the top and bottom!
One more thing, it saddens me when I see her unhappy. I shouldn't write too much here. I don't wnat to upset her when she sees this. But, I want to see her happy and energized. What should I do?
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