Skimming through my blog posts, I realized I was like a bitch in heat! I desired for a relationship, desired for a sense of belonging, and desired for love! That was me more than four years ago. I felt so embarrassed while reading my old posts.
Now, I feel embarrassed for writing the same thing! I desire for the same thing. This is a proof that the leopard cannot change its spots! Hah!
What about my confession? Will it ever be returned?
Monday, January 31, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
以人為本 People-oriented
雖然很累，但還是要把今天學到的和心得感想寫下來。
做生意、經營企業與人互動，應該要以人為本。
知道這件事情，不過今天確確實實的想到最適當的形容詞，以人為本！
還有，人不要變成只是生產抗生素的黴菌，實在太可怕了。
阿明叔叔的媽媽最近也過往了，RIP！
叔叔的媽媽好偉大，我從叔叔身上學到了很多，甚至是以人為本的典範！
今天有去上香。
No matter it's a multinational business or a small business, I believe it should be people-oriented when dealing anything involved with different individuals. This is what I learned the utmost important thing today!
I wonder, however, how many businesses out there really are people-oriented, especially for those multinational businesses? I feel they are hypocrites with pretty-looking masks! When the masks are removed, the true ugliness unveils the unacceptable disgusting nature!
This not just applies to businesses, but people! How do you look under your mask? Do you have the same face with your mask? It's sad that we mask ourselves, even between best friends in some cases! I have to admit: I do put on a mask; I put on my mask, so I can hide true feelings, in case I expose my weakness to those who can potentially harm me! Of course, I do have an ugly looking naked face; however, do you look any better than me? Hypocrites wannabe or hypocrites shouldn't be?
做生意、經營企業與人互動，應該要以人為本。
知道這件事情，不過今天確確實實的想到最適當的形容詞，以人為本！
還有，人不要變成只是生產抗生素的黴菌，實在太可怕了。
阿明叔叔的媽媽最近也過往了，RIP！
叔叔的媽媽好偉大，我從叔叔身上學到了很多，甚至是以人為本的典範！
今天有去上香。
No matter it's a multinational business or a small business, I believe it should be people-oriented when dealing anything involved with different individuals. This is what I learned the utmost important thing today!
I wonder, however, how many businesses out there really are people-oriented, especially for those multinational businesses? I feel they are hypocrites with pretty-looking masks! When the masks are removed, the true ugliness unveils the unacceptable disgusting nature!
This not just applies to businesses, but people! How do you look under your mask? Do you have the same face with your mask? It's sad that we mask ourselves, even between best friends in some cases! I have to admit: I do put on a mask; I put on my mask, so I can hide true feelings, in case I expose my weakness to those who can potentially harm me! Of course, I do have an ugly looking naked face; however, do you look any better than me? Hypocrites wannabe or hypocrites shouldn't be?
Friday, January 28, 2011
心想不事成
Secrets這本書主張心想事成，不過很多事情往往不能強求。
心想事成是在不會造成別人困擾的前提下，才會心想事成。
強求不是你的東西，想得到根本就不可能會發生，更何況想要得到的是一個人的心。
很多時候，該不該自私，或是放下真的會造成矛盾。
不自私沒機會，卻也可能太過執著。
真希望，一切都可以心想事成。
喜歡一個人有錯嗎?! XD
心想事成是在不會造成別人困擾的前提下，才會心想事成。
強求不是你的東西，想得到根本就不可能會發生，更何況想要得到的是一個人的心。
很多時候，該不該自私，或是放下真的會造成矛盾。
不自私沒機會，卻也可能太過執著。
真希望，一切都可以心想事成。
喜歡一個人有錯嗎?! XD
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
ITP Reunion
On Sunday, I took 8:30 ferry to Vancouver in the morning. It was the day before I flew to Taipei (The time for my flight was 00:15 on Monday). I had lunch with Winnie, Gina and Claire at Cactus Club at Burrard.
It has been two years since our SFU ITPers graduated. Winnie said she's really proud of us, because everyone from 09' ITP class is pursuing after his/her dream. Warrick becomes a stylish TOEFL instructor, Daisy L. is finally dating "someone", Daisy C. finished her education degree, Tina C. is in Hong Kong with her lovely BF, Claire has already finished half of her Nurse program, Kevin, who finally was able to move to Japan, broke up with his ex, but enjoying his life somewhere near Tokyo, Gina is studying for her Law certificate exam, and Mikki is an anchor at a Chinese TV station! . . . ME? I am still a freshman at Chiayi University. I am 27 y/o. . .
Winnie, sneaky as she has been, paid for our lunch without us noticing. We ended up pushing our money back and forth for Winnie. She insisted on treating us, so I simply said "fine, but Winnie, when you visit Taiwan, the meal will be on me." That was when all of us stopped the polite "money pushing."
On Sunday afternoon, I met the Korean girl who I had a crash on. We had a nice long conversation and we were happy to see each other again.
My Sunday night ended with a perfect dinner treated by Max and Tingting! We had Singaporean Cuisine. It's been a long while the last time I had Singapore food! Spicy, yummy and good good! It gave people tongasm! XDDD
Max is such a nice friend xD Thank you again!
It has been two years since our SFU ITPers graduated. Winnie said she's really proud of us, because everyone from 09' ITP class is pursuing after his/her dream. Warrick becomes a stylish TOEFL instructor, Daisy L. is finally dating "someone", Daisy C. finished her education degree, Tina C. is in Hong Kong with her lovely BF, Claire has already finished half of her Nurse program, Kevin, who finally was able to move to Japan, broke up with his ex, but enjoying his life somewhere near Tokyo, Gina is studying for her Law certificate exam, and Mikki is an anchor at a Chinese TV station! . . . ME? I am still a freshman at Chiayi University. I am 27 y/o. . .
Winnie, sneaky as she has been, paid for our lunch without us noticing. We ended up pushing our money back and forth for Winnie. She insisted on treating us, so I simply said "fine, but Winnie, when you visit Taiwan, the meal will be on me." That was when all of us stopped the polite "money pushing."
On Sunday afternoon, I met the Korean girl who I had a crash on. We had a nice long conversation and we were happy to see each other again.
My Sunday night ended with a perfect dinner treated by Max and Tingting! We had Singaporean Cuisine. It's been a long while the last time I had Singapore food! Spicy, yummy and good good! It gave people tongasm! XDDD
Max is such a nice friend xD Thank you again!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Ice Wine! 冰酒
I bought several bottles of ICE WINE today; I planned to bring them to Taiwan. Each bottle is at least $1,500 TWD, not to mention the bottle is only 375mL . . . My gosh! But, they taste so good! I spent almost 10,000 TWD just on the ice wine.
Now, that wasn't it; I spent even more on salmon fish oil . . . I rather not to talk about how much I paid for those. I also got some Maple Cream cookies and Maple Syrup for my dear friends; those who have helped me will, for sure, receive some.
Oh, I also got myself some clothing; I noticed my waist size had decreased by two, hell ya, but I gained like 1kg since I arrived Canada. My good buddy Max and his wife treated me some really nice Korean food. OMFG, Taiwan's Korean food is nothing compare to what they offered me here! So delicious, zesty, spicy, succulent, appetizing, flavourful. . . The bottom line is I haven't had better Korean food other than the ones I tried in Korea, but hey, it's Canada! Thank you Max and Tingting!
Don't know what to write today; I will stop here, hehe.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Canada, My Home! 加拿大: 我的家!
The cold air mixed with a refreshing scent, upon my arrival in Canada, was what I first noticed. It's good to be home once again. My feelings were complicated: sorrowful yet so hopeful, depressed yet so calmed, and troubled yet so open-minded. What a great place to live!
在我抵達加拿大時，迎接我的是涼爽又清新的空氣。很高興能再次回家。伴隨著複雜的心情：沮喪卻又充滿希望，低落卻又顯得平靜，不安卻又思維廣闊。真是個好地方啊!
It has been a crazy semester in Taiwan and it will continue to be . . . While walking on Robson Street in Vancouver, I asked myself did I make the right decision, which I choose to study in Taiwan. What if I stayed in Canada, instead of going for more school after my Interpretation & Translation Program, I chose to work in Vancouver? Would I be making money? Would I be dating a foreigner? Or would I be still looking for a job? I quickly told myself those questions were irrelevant. They meant nothing to me, because I CHOOSE to walk down the path of becoming a veterinary entrepreneur. I MUST be CRAZY!
在台灣度過了瘋狂的第一學期，感覺接下來只會越來越瘋狂 . . . 走在溫哥華街上時，我問了自己是不是選擇了對的決定：在台灣繼續求學。如果我當初，在完成口譯與筆譯課程後，不是回台灣，而是留在溫哥華工作，會不會不一樣? 我會已經賺到很多錢嗎? 我會和外國人交往嗎? 還是我仍然在當米蟲找工作? 不過我很快的告訴自己這些問題都已經不重要。對我來說沒有任何意義，因為我選擇成為獸醫企業家之路。我一定是瘋了!!!
At school in Taiwan, I acted like a 18y/o high school graduate. Sometimes, I am confused by my own identity. Am I a twenty-seven year old man or am I a teenager? Everyone around me is so young that I no longer need to show my mature side. Pity that I purposely switched to I-am-a-child mode. Perhaps, even if I acted like a grown adult, nobody gives a shit anyway, because it's not what people value at this stage of life. I am disgusted of myself. I wish somebody out there understands what I mean.
So far, many things I did at Chiayi U. didn't meet my own expectation. If I were to give myself a grade on what I did, I give myself a C-, barely passed.
目前，我對我在嘉大的表現並不滿意。如果要給自己打分數，應該只有低空過及格。
This is probably my last time visiting Canada for the upcoming year, since I decided to take a break from school and go to armies in Taiwan. I am so fortunate to be part of Canada and thankful to her for nourishing me. Of course, my parents are always top on my list. Hopefully, the next time I visit Canada will be longer compare to a five day stay. I love Canada.
在接下來的一年半，這可能是我最後一次來加拿大，因為我決定先休學，然後當兵。我很幸運是加拿大的一份子，也感謝她養育我。當然，父母永遠都是第一。希望下次我在來加拿大的時候，不像這次，只能待個五天。我愛加拿大。
在我抵達加拿大時，迎接我的是涼爽又清新的空氣。很高興能再次回家。伴隨著複雜的心情：沮喪卻又充滿希望，低落卻又顯得平靜，不安卻又思維廣闊。真是個好地方啊!
It has been a crazy semester in Taiwan and it will continue to be . . . While walking on Robson Street in Vancouver, I asked myself did I make the right decision, which I choose to study in Taiwan. What if I stayed in Canada, instead of going for more school after my Interpretation & Translation Program, I chose to work in Vancouver? Would I be making money? Would I be dating a foreigner? Or would I be still looking for a job? I quickly told myself those questions were irrelevant. They meant nothing to me, because I CHOOSE to walk down the path of becoming a veterinary entrepreneur. I MUST be CRAZY!
在台灣度過了瘋狂的第一學期，感覺接下來只會越來越瘋狂 . . . 走在溫哥華街上時，我問了自己是不是選擇了對的決定：在台灣繼續求學。如果我當初，在完成口譯與筆譯課程後，不是回台灣，而是留在溫哥華工作，會不會不一樣? 我會已經賺到很多錢嗎? 我會和外國人交往嗎? 還是我仍然在當米蟲找工作? 不過我很快的告訴自己這些問題都已經不重要。對我來說沒有任何意義，因為我選擇成為獸醫企業家之路。我一定是瘋了!!!
At school in Taiwan, I acted like a 18y/o high school graduate. Sometimes, I am confused by my own identity. Am I a twenty-seven year old man or am I a teenager? Everyone around me is so young that I no longer need to show my mature side. Pity that I purposely switched to I-am-a-child mode. Perhaps, even if I acted like a grown adult, nobody gives a shit anyway, because it's not what people value at this stage of life. I am disgusted of myself. I wish somebody out there understands what I mean.
So far, many things I did at Chiayi U. didn't meet my own expectation. If I were to give myself a grade on what I did, I give myself a C-, barely passed.
目前，我對我在嘉大的表現並不滿意。如果要給自己打分數，應該只有低空過及格。
This is probably my last time visiting Canada for the upcoming year, since I decided to take a break from school and go to armies in Taiwan. I am so fortunate to be part of Canada and thankful to her for nourishing me. Of course, my parents are always top on my list. Hopefully, the next time I visit Canada will be longer compare to a five day stay. I love Canada.
在接下來的一年半，這可能是我最後一次來加拿大，因為我決定先休學，然後當兵。我很幸運是加拿大的一份子，也感謝她養育我。當然，父母永遠都是第一。希望下次我在來加拿大的時候，不像這次，只能待個五天。我愛加拿大。
Monday, January 17, 2011
回去了 Going home
我的阿嬤昨天早上回去了，享年85歲。
這兩個星期來都在忙學校考試的事情，跟阿嬤說過，她總是回答：「挖災挖災，沒關係。」
弟弟出國去波蘭前，有和舅舅去看她。那時她意識還清楚，會笑。
考完試後星期六晚上，有個已經答應的尾牙要去幫忙。帶了朋友們去幫忙，所以還沒有去看阿嬤。
星期日早上要飛加拿大前，去看了阿嬤，剛好接到醫院病危通知。到的時候，我看見她已經失去意識，心跳也很慢，曾經一度到零bpm。眼睛微張，可說是只剩下呼吸。
爸媽如何在她耳邊叫她，她都沒有反應。
大家輪流跟阿嬤說了話，媽說：「媽，妳病都好了，都不會痛了。」
又說：「阿密陀佛來接妳，妳就對祂走。」
後來輪到我到她耳邊說話。
說完後，阿嬤雖沒反應，但她流淚了。
看到她的樣子，我很難過，不過我沒在她面前哭，在她的面前，我哭不出來，我不想讓她對大家留戀。人都會有走的時候，沒關係。
最後一次看完她還有呼吸後，我出來病房外，失控的大哭了。還好家綺有安慰我。她幫了我好多忙，謝謝妳。
自己好沒用，26歲卻沒讓阿嬤享到我該給她的。雖然我長大後和阿嬤在一起的時間不長，但還是有個牽絆。
還好我有到醫院陪過她，還好我有在她最後一次出院時去看她，也還好有煮飯給她吃，還好我有告訴她我會成為獸醫師，還好弟弟剛好回來有見到她。
聽說 . . .
阿嬤那天是在等我，所以才會我到後說完話不久，就走了。
阿嬤，我永遠都是妳的孫，能當妳的孫子我很幸福，謝謝妳。
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這兩個星期來都在忙學校考試的事情，跟阿嬤說過，她總是回答：「挖災挖災，沒關係。」
弟弟出國去波蘭前，有和舅舅去看她。那時她意識還清楚，會笑。
考完試後星期六晚上，有個已經答應的尾牙要去幫忙。帶了朋友們去幫忙，所以還沒有去看阿嬤。
星期日早上要飛加拿大前，去看了阿嬤，剛好接到醫院病危通知。到的時候，我看見她已經失去意識，心跳也很慢，曾經一度到零bpm。眼睛微張，可說是只剩下呼吸。
爸媽如何在她耳邊叫她，她都沒有反應。
大家輪流跟阿嬤說了話，媽說：「媽，妳病都好了，都不會痛了。」
又說：「阿密陀佛來接妳，妳就對祂走。」
後來輪到我到她耳邊說話。
說完後，阿嬤雖沒反應，但她流淚了。
看到她的樣子，我很難過，不過我沒在她面前哭，在她的面前，我哭不出來，我不想讓她對大家留戀。人都會有走的時候，沒關係。
最後一次看完她還有呼吸後，我出來病房外，失控的大哭了。還好家綺有安慰我。她幫了我好多忙，謝謝妳。
自己好沒用，26歲卻沒讓阿嬤享到我該給她的。雖然我長大後和阿嬤在一起的時間不長，但還是有個牽絆。
還好我有到醫院陪過她，還好我有在她最後一次出院時去看她，也還好有煮飯給她吃，還好我有告訴她我會成為獸醫師，還好弟弟剛好回來有見到她。
聽說 . . .
阿嬤那天是在等我，所以才會我到後說完話不久，就走了。
阿嬤，我永遠都是妳的孫，能當妳的孫子我很幸福，謝謝妳。
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My grandma passed away at the age of 85 last morning.
For the last two weeks, I had been busy with school's final exams. Even though I'd told about it, she always answered, "I know. I know. Don't worry about me too much."
Before my brother went to Poland, he had a chance to go see grandma with my uncle. At the time, she still had clear conscious. She talked energetically with them.
I had promised to help an annual party (year end party) on Saturday night. I brought my friends with me, so I didn't have a chance to go see grandma on Saturday.
Before I fly to Canada on Sunday the next day, I took a detour to go see her and on the same morning, my parents received a call from hospital about my grandma's condition. When we arrived, my grandma had no consciousness and her bpm reached 0 several times with really weak breath. Her eyes were barely open.
No matter how many times my parents called her, she had no reaction.
Everyone took his/her tern to talk to grandma. My mom told her, "mom, your illness has gone away already; you are fully healed and you suffer no more pain."
She added, "When Namo Amitabha comes, go with Amitabha."
Then it was my turn to speak at her ear.
After I spoke to her, though she had no reaction, she teared.
Seeing her makes me really depressed. Nevertheless, I didn't and couldn't cry in front of her, because I didn't want her to leave worryingly. Everyone has his/her time.
That was the last time to see her alive breathing. I walked outside and leaned against a wall. I lost it, a complete break down. Thankfully, Tanya was there. Thank you.
I feel so useless; I couldn't give what should be given to her at the age of 26. Though I didn't spend much time with her, we still have a strong bond.
Fortunately, I spent some time with her at the hospital before. Fortunately, I went to see her the last time she was at home. And fortunately, I cooked her meals. Fortunately, I told her I will become a vet. Fortunately, my brother could go see her before he left for Poland.
They told me . . .
Grandma was waiting for me that day; she left after I spoke to her.
A-ma, I am your grandson and always will be; I am really fortunate to be your grandson. Thank you.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Virgin POST! BIATTTCH. Time for a new beginning.
It's been a really long time, since I wrote my last official blog on MSN Live space. I really treasured what I had written, thought and recorded. It's a shame that I only kept my blog alive for two years? I never thought I would return to blog writing, yet again, haha. This time, I do not know how long I will last on writing blogs, but for sure, I enjoy writing down my feelings, thoughts and experiences. That's why I always swear in my blog articles XDDD hell YA!~
It sucks that my blog is so empty right now; I will try to add more stuff later one by one. Anyway, since this is my first blog in Jan. 2011. I think I should write down my New Year Resolutions xD.
1. Hope everything I do this year will make my parents proud and doesn't let them down.
2. Find a gal! :D SOUL MATE! maybe body mate?
3. Lose 20% of my weight . . . damn 20%? Maybe I should start with 0.5% XDDD
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First semester will end in two days. I kinda liked my first semester in Taiwan. Everyone I met is nice except for one thing . . . I am stuck with same people in the same classroom . . . This shit is stupid! I seriously think TW colleges should adopt what American colleges have: switching classrooms for different class and mixing students from different majors in a class! We friggin need some classroom diversity. It's BORING and DULLer than taking a constipation shit! :( sigh sigh! The problem is . . . an Animal Sci student mostly only interact with other animal sci students . . . SO BAD!
There's my whining yoyo! =)
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By the way, I'm flyinggg to CANADA on 16th yo!~ wakaka I miss the smell of Canada~ FRESHNESSS! I miss the feeling just standing "on" Canada~ I also miss Tim Horton! Sitting in a Tim Horton, looking through the glass window, enjoying my double double with a honey glaze! YUM yum!! XD
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UPDATE: I frigging imported my old blogs! Gotta love import function! Goodbye MSN Live Space (though it doesn't exist anymore . . . haha)
UPDATE: 我把以前的部落格導入了! 秘密會被看光喔喀喀!
It sucks that my blog is so empty right now; I will try to add more stuff later one by one. Anyway, since this is my first blog in Jan. 2011. I think I should write down my New Year Resolutions xD.
1. Hope everything I do this year will make my parents proud and doesn't let them down.
2. Find a gal! :D SOUL MATE! maybe body mate?
3. Lose 20% of my weight . . . damn 20%? Maybe I should start with 0.5% XDDD
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First semester will end in two days. I kinda liked my first semester in Taiwan. Everyone I met is nice except for one thing . . . I am stuck with same people in the same classroom . . . This shit is stupid! I seriously think TW colleges should adopt what American colleges have: switching classrooms for different class and mixing students from different majors in a class! We friggin need some classroom diversity. It's BORING and DULLer than taking a constipation shit! :( sigh sigh! The problem is . . . an Animal Sci student mostly only interact with other animal sci students . . . SO BAD!
There's my whining yoyo! =)
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By the way, I'm flyinggg to CANADA on 16th yo!~ wakaka I miss the smell of Canada~ FRESHNESSS! I miss the feeling just standing "on" Canada~ I also miss Tim Horton! Sitting in a Tim Horton, looking through the glass window, enjoying my double double with a honey glaze! YUM yum!! XD
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UPDATE: I frigging imported my old blogs! Gotta love import function! Goodbye MSN Live Space (though it doesn't exist anymore . . . haha)
UPDATE: 我把以前的部落格導入了! 秘密會被看光喔喀喀!
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